Focus brings about awareness… awareness brings about perspective. Yes, my favorite words again for the last few years…yet, I always seem to be amazed by them.
This week I focused…really focused on the question that is always bouncing around in my head: WHAT DO I WANT? I had a thought… What if someone wants to give me EXACTLY what I want…AND they asked me…AND I could not answer them>??? The magic genie in the bottle 😉 How sad that would be… It reminds me of the joke that this person keeps praying to God to win the lottery…months and months and years go by…becoming so frustrated with God and their prayers not being answered, they reach out and blatantly ask God, why are you not answering my prayers? He answers…would you at least buy a lottery ticket.
Have I bought my lottery ticket? Why am I here? What is my gift? What Do I Want?
I believe the meaning of life is to find your gift…the purpose…to give it away. I believe that I have found my gift: I am a great numbers and finance and strategy person. People like talking with me…so I believe I am a people person. I absolutely LOVE Helping Others! I grew up not following “THE” path because it was “THE” path…I questioned…I question everything. I accept now that if something does not make sense to me…and I can not learn or make sense of it, I don’t continue or pursue it. This has served me well. Did Mark Twain say that common sense is not so common?
I am winning the battle of putting into words WHAT I WANT. A Godsend into my life is my guide Terry. He made me ‘aware’ that “What I Want” needs to be put into clear understandable language so that I can begin construction on my ‘project’…my new me! It became very clear to me this week of how negligent I have been to focus on what I want. Also very clear to me of how my old blueprint is fighting against me trying to create my new me…my new future self. Og says it best, “I have surrendered my free will to the years of accumulated habits and the past deeds of my life have already marked out a path which threatens to imprison my future.”
NOT ON MY WATCH!
“I will walk tall among men and they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life.”