This morning’s read has struck me, well… *palm smacking the forehead*
“Satan is our enemy and his goal is to get us so emotionally rattled that we say things that will provide him with an opening into our lives, or he hopes that we will make unwise decisions during painful times and create messes that we will have to deal with for a long, long time afterward.”
I did not understand that if I could hold my tongue and remain emotionally stable during times of difficulty, then I would be honoring God and letting the devil know that he is not going to control me. I am not 100% successful at doing this… yet, but I am moving forward. And while I am not where I need to be, or want to be, I know that I am at least a lot further ahead of where I used to be. It is through this growth that I have learned the importance of managing my emotions….BUT…. it is so freaking hard!!!! …Just like being the silent, non-opinionated observer!!!!! But BUT BUT…. I got plenty of buts…it’s the doing I’m a having a problem with 😉
Last night was another situation…test…opportunity. Walking into a bar with Rory, my son, in Baltimore, I was asked to remove my hat, while he was getting a drink menu from the barmaid. Turning around from the barmaid he asked me what happened. “He told me to remove my hat”, I answered. We left. We discussed the situation and our feelings about it while we walked to another bar. Next bar, same attitude. I removed my hat. I think about week 23’s webinar that I just listened to on the way to Conn…particularly Trish’s presentation on humility…no resistance… “Effortless Ease” – “Nature’s intelligence functions with effortless ease… with carefreeness, harmony and love. And when we harness the forces of harmony, joy, and love, we create success and good fortune with effortless ease.”
What am I pretending not to know?
Fifty some odd years has shaped me…made me what I am today. I am fighting and mourning the loss of the old me, yet I am accepting… I am celebrating the birth of the new me and enjoying this journey so much! I am letting go of what I no longer need to have the life I desire. So freaking cool!!!