My focus is still on my DMP. Yes…still there.
For too long I ignored what my heart tried to tell me that it… that I wanted…and I believe now that I will have to pay an even heavier/higher price. …Challenge accepted!!!
I will not allow the red pencil, the cement, my old blueprint or any other obstacle to get in the way of creating, getting my DMP down on paper. I welcome obstacles for they are my challenge!!! I weigh back and forth of the importance of this one important factor and will not let the fate of my future self be entangled in my past habits. My past habits allowed me to put this off…not understanding the true long-term repercussions of what not deciding what I really wanted was doing to me!!! …and now…all-of-a-sudden…I know! Holy crap!
My light scares the crap out of me…yet…I am no longer comfortable not letting it shine. I am aware now that by not letting it shine…I am being selfish. God has given me a gift…and if I am not willing to share it…what is the sense of me being here?
So…back to the drawing…. the DMP board. I want to have that clear picture… that clear blueprint, my NEW blueprint clear as a lighthouse spot beam focused on exactly what I want so that the universe, that part of my mind that acts in ways I do not understand, will bring forth that which I want.
Yup… I know…I’m rambling. Struggling. Becoming aware. Taking action. Staying true to finding out what I really want so I can start creating my future self that will blow my old self away. I’ve already had a taste of what it could be like and I want more… I want it all! I won’t be satisfied until all the cement is gone and my gold self shines so brightly that it will allow others to do the same!