Yup…scrambled.  Each day brings new emotions lately.  Can’t wait to get into my sits…so much that I am even doing them twice a day and even for twice or three times longer.  I really love the time during my sit.  Do I come back here…or is where I am going during my sit here… there…. where???  The red pill or the blue???  Outside my sit life has become a roller-coaster of emotion and clarity.  From thinking I know what I want, to having no idea…from being perfectly clear…to perfectly confused…I LOVE IT!  Something new is going on in me…around me…with me…I have been guided to enjoy the journey…so I am!  I just know that things are about to get really wild and I am okay with that.  I am okay with accepting the fact that I will be letting go of my banana…bananas.  First half of my life was great…next part will be even better.  I did not like change…would always order vanilla ice cream for desert…same meal at the same restaurant…. WOW….really?  What was I thinking?

The awareness and perspective creeping into and around me is awesome.  I made a pact with myself that this post would be positive and motivating.  It’s all green pencil and growth.  I choose to show and strengthen courage and let the other atrophy!  I’m going for the “what is wrong with you?” question from the people that I know now…it proves to me that I am on the right track when “they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life.”